The beginning of this week was pretty hard. On Sunday night, after praying one of the most sincere prayers I've ever prayed, I lay in bed filled with self doubt. I just felt like there was no way forward and that I would never be able to learn the language or become fluent in the gospel. I had prayed that somehow I would be able to get through this. As I lay there, I felt the Spirit very strongly testify to me that Jesus Christ knew what I was going through. I felt the enabling power of the atonement as I heard the Spirit whisper to me "Stop doubting yourself, you know you can do it. You have faith in Christ don't you? Then why are you worried when you know he will help you through this?" After that, I distinctly felt as if there were angels in the room. I felt as if my Grandpa Gull and Furniss were there. No, I knew they were there. I realized I have had guardian angels around me this whole time, helping me through my struggles, always there with an outstretched hand to get me to where I need to be. I will never be able to express in words how grateful I am for the atonement of my Savior. Without him, I wouldn't be able to make it on my own out here. I am so thankful for Him.
Well I hope you all have a good week! I am so excited and happy for my sister to get married tomorrow! I wish I could be there but I know this is where I'm supposed to be. I found out Elder Keith Barnard lives one floor above me, so we have had some good times! Elder Polatis flew out to St. Louis yesterday morning and he came to say goodbye the night before. He is such a crazy awesome missionary. It's so weird to think that I've been out for almost a month. My Tagalog is still pretty bad but its getting there! You guys stay safe!
Mahal kita
Love Elder Furniss
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